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A rough draft of a horse and a flame
As far as deep sky photo goes, this is a rough draft of a future photo – the horsehead nebula and flame nebula in the Orion constellation. It is the photo I have been waiting for since we took the first photos of the Andromeda galaxy. When I started, and even now, there aren’t many deep sky objects I can name by sight. The horsehead has a characteristic shape etched in my mind by NASA Hubble images. It is also a beginner deep sky target that offers an opportunity to get infinitely better as skills progress.
On shoulders of giants
This photo isn’t my memory. It is my mom’s memory. I was too young to remember. I have memories of seeing this photo in my mom’s album. I do remember dad’s watch. He wore it for many years. It was a little loose on his wrist and would invariable climb up or down and swing about. I remember his glasses. Again, he wore them for many many years. They went out of fashion and came back into fashion during his lifetime. I remember his thick curly black hair. In my childhood photos, my hair is curly like his. I remember his broad shoulders and his chest press machine. He had a resting unhappy face but he would laugh very easily. I am like that too. I have inherited his hands and feet as well, narrow and small.
After he passed away last year, I read tributes of his colleagues. Many remembered him very fondly. One story touched my heart especially. This was someone who was newly posted to his office, the National Institute of Communicable Disease (NICD), India’s equivalent of CDC. In those days, job postings of civil servants was decided by government committees. It was his first day and he was nervously waiting to speak to my dad whom he only knew by reputation. Dad had kept him waiting for a bit. And then when they met, dad bombarded him with many technical questions. This colleague had felt that my dad’s interview was a lot harder than what he had gone through in the government’s bureaucratic process. At the end of the interview, he was assigned his first job by my dad and that job was to present the office at a prestigious conference the very next day. He was scared at first to speak at the conference, but as he participated, he felt more and more confident, eventually coming out feeling victorious. He went on to work with my dad for many years and referred to my dad as a great mentor of his.
Read the rest of this entry »A winter ramble
I was feeling restless this Monday. Even though it was a working day, I decided to go out on a short afternoon hike. Further inland from where we are, the tule fog had descended on the central valley and was squatting for solid 3 weeks and counting. Here in the Bay Area, the sun was up, but it didn’t carry warmth. The morning dew was still lingering and I noticed spider webs. There were so many that the grassland looked covered in dandelion tufts. I go to this park often, I am sure I have been over couple dozen times in the last three years and the web tufts managed to surprise and delight me.
The grassland itself presented diversity this early in the winter – the fallen leaves, dry grass from last season, new generation of grass, moss and other shrubs existed side by side. I chose a trail I take less often and came across a large deer family and this afternoon, they chose not to run away upon seeing me. Later, on the same trail, I found my local oyster mushroom foraging patch!
Read the rest of this entry »Take the greens by the stalk
We have consumed more greens in last two years than we ate the entire last two decades. I have our CSA (Live Earth Farm) to thank for that. Red beets come with lively green tops. Baby carrots come with leggy green tops. The turnips come with eager green leaves. The fennels come with delicate frond wings. Then there are just the greens on stalks – the rainbow chard and the spinach and the collard greens and the lacinato kale and the russian red kale and the winterbor kale. And of course there are herbs – the cilantro, the parsley, the rosemary, the scallions and the basil. These are not your anemic slim bunches that you get at the grocery store. The leeks come whole i.e. twice the greens of your grocery store bought ones. And finally, the heads, the salads, the radicchio etc.
There is no way you can waste them. These are no faceless farmers from another continent. They are located in Freedom, just a hop, skip and jump away. The food is grown on a land that I call home and I am convinced that small scale organic farming is backbreaking labor of love.
So, I have been cooking these greens in all possible ways. The unexpected greens from the carrots, turnips, fennel and beets, the stalky greens, the heads of greens, the herbs. And the greens don’t just stop with CSA – the real backyard giveth onion weeds, the oregano buds, the mint, the sorrels, the lemongrass, the makrut lime leaves, the fig leaves, and the bay leaves. Sometimes there are microgreens in a box by the window.
… and it has been exhausting. Like I have been running a marathon. All the cleaning, chopping, drying, freezing, pureeing, powdering, …
Read the rest of this entry »Cosmic loneliness
Today’s story is not about philosophical loneliness, it is about the practical one, the one at cosmic scale.
“Pale Blue Dot is a photograph of Earth taken on February 14, 1990, by the Voyager 1 space probe from a distance of over 6 billion kilometers (3.7 billion miles), as part of Family Portrait series of images of the Solar System.” –Wikipedia
In the Pale Blue Dot photo, a medium size 666 x 659 pixels, Earth is less than a pixel (0.12 pixels), suspended in a beam of sunlight. This photo was taken at the request of Carl Sagan, who wanted the Voyager to turn around as it passed Neptune’s orbit and picture earth. He went on to speak about this photo, “Look again at that dot. That’s here. That’s home. That’s us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives.” Thirty four minutes after that photo in 1990, the Voyager I camera was permanently turned off. Carl Sagan wrote his book Pale Blue Dot in 1994 and he died in 1996 at 62, battling a rare bone marrow disease.
It has taken me 30 years to truly understand what Carl Sagan meant when he said “That’s home”. And that only happened when we found our passion to capture photons from these far off light sources.
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These photons from Pleiades landed on our camera sensor, so there!
We first noticed Pleiades in Anza Borrego, about the same time last year. We were camping (link). I add the photo below of Pleiades that we took back then.
Our stars bind us. There is perhaps no where else in the universe where the stars looks the same as it does to earthlings. Pleiades is bright enough that they have been part of ours folklores (link) since the beginning of our story telling.
Read the rest of this entry »Homage to my lineage
As I live, I gain memories. But as I live, I lose many of these memories. This is my attempt to hold on to some memories dearly.
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I too like to take the scenic route when I cook!
When I took a whiff of Matsutake mushrooms at Signona’s, I knew that I would have to make Matsutake Gohan. My version has Minnesota Lake wild rice, the ghost varietal, matsutake mushrooms, pearl couscous, pine nuts, dried tomatoes, salt fermented plums, green Szechuan peppercorn, black cardamom, bay leaf, cinnamon leaf and leeks. This meal was in honor of the Day of the Dead, a tradition I have adopted to honor those who are are no longer with me today. The first to pass away was my grandad, in fact, it was many decades ago this day. I was still a child then. He used to write long letters to me and might have played a strong hand in nurturing my contemplative nature.
The phrase “I Like to Take the Scenic Route When I Cook” is the title of a November 2025 newsletter from Yotam Ottolenghi. My cooking style has been described as my love language. I don’t see it that way but I didn’t have words to describe it until I came across Ottolenghi’s Nov newsletter. And then it clicked. I too prefer the scenic route when I cook. In any month, there is at least one day when I would just like to open a can of sardines and a bottle of wine for dinner. But most times, food is a journey, sometimes an hour, sometimes a day or three, and sometimes, a few seasons.
Here are some of the journeys I undertook with this dish.
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This is my third ink and second art. The first two are from the fourth decade of my life and form a contiguous piece of art. The very first ink is cherry blossom. The second ink extends the first with a young playful elephant playing amidst the cherry blossoms. The style of the first art is a rather non-traditional tattoo and more like a watercolor sketch. I have been going after my spirit animals. The land animal is the elephant. The water animal is the humpback whale. If I were Anyanwu from Octavia Butler’s Wild Seed, I would shape shift into these animals. My first art is showing signs of fading. I could get it touched up, but I am embracing the wabi-sabi. I still have a decade to find my wind animal spirit. My tattooist, Dawei Zhang is semi-retired now. The whale showcases Dawei’s skills as a photo-realistic artist.
My pumpkin carving journey continues – this is the third year. Following last year’s debacle with Ravana and the stupendous effort of carving 10 pumpkins, I decided to stick to one pumpkin this year. I had chosen Goddess Kali as the theme. She is one angry Goddess with skull and sword vibe and she had felt very apt for Halloween. I thought I was being clever when I had chatGPT generate the template. Only when I printed the template on the day of Halloween, I realized it was too small and carving skills needed for the template far exceeded what I had to offer. So, I shaved the pumpkin instead. Not that shaving is any easier than carving, but it was either shaving the pumpkin or quit. And I wasn’t going to quit. I decided that I was going to be wiser next year. For this year, I was simply going to be grateful if my sharp instruments didn’t slip and I didn’t accidentally chop of Goddess’s eye or nose or tongue.
First photograph of a nebula
There are probably a million photos of galaxies and nebulae that look astounding. So why take another one, an amateur one at that?
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Diwali, a festival of lights.
This year’s Diwali ended up being a festival of star lights at Death Valley National Park, the darkest sky that can be, amidst a federal government shutdown.
We had made a call earlier in the summer to sign up for a star gazing event organized by Eastern Sierra Observatory, in Panamint Valley. The site was by the side of a county maintained dirt road, Indian Ranch road. The organizers are astrophotographers themselves. They were quiet until a few days before the event. An earlier flash flooding in August had resulted in closure of several roads in Death Valley. Three weeks ago, the federal government had shut down resulting in the shutdown of National Park Services. It had rained recently and as a result, the county road was badly rutted in places. The organizers had crafted a detailed and helpful email on road access – “Take Hwy 58 from Bakersfield and not the twisty Hwy 178”, “Whatever you do — first navigate to Ballarat first”, “Do not approach the county road from north”, “The road is bumpy here and there, so drive slowly”, …
I wasn’t sure what to expect. This was our first communal star gazing event. On one hand was the government shutdown and poor road conditions. On other hand, the 2025 Dark Sky Festival in Death Valley National Park, held in Feb, had reported over 6,800 attendees. Our camping experience hasn’t yet prepared us to deal with a primitive campground. The site was going to have porta potties, but not water. Instead, they were going to bring large telescopes to look at planets in our solar system and star clusters that are million light years away. I couldn’t stand the idea of star gazing while being unbathed for 3 days in a hot valley. So, we had also checked into the Panamint Springs Resort. The rutted county road meant we were going to be driving an hour each way from Panamint Springs Resort (daytime) to the campsite (nighttime) and back, but it also meant that we were going to be fed, washed and rested. Even then, I was a little apprehensive. I needn’t have been.
In the end, 150-180 vehicles had congregated at the event, not thousands. They were respectful of the dark sky. Everyone used red lights when they needed to use a light. There was no music playing. While the historic temperature averages predicted 60-90F, we ended up with 50-85F. As far as Death Valley goes, it was positively balmy weather. They had suggested bringing 12 inch stakes and we were glad to have followed the suggestion. We experienced gusts of wind throughout our stay. It was particularly windy when we were setting camp. I remember feeling a brief moment of panic when we weren’t sure if we would be able to put up the tent. But we did and the tent stayed put. There were a couple of welcome surprises – a starlink WiFi access and a food truck.
It couldn’t have been better star gazing experience. We have been going to Pinnacles National Park (Bortle 3), but Death Valley sky is darker still (Bortle 1). We would get to the campsite by 4 or 5 pm, and set up photography gear. During earlier part of the evening, there were organized events. One evening we listened to a panel of astrophysicists from Caltech. We looked through giant telescopes and saw globular cluster and rings of saturn. We ate simply. We would select the star cluster and set up the photoshoot program and catch a snooze before moving on to the next star cluster. Each night we ran two programs. We managed to shoot several hours of Andromeda galaxy, Pleiades cluster, North America nebula and the Orion nebula. These are relatively large objects in the sky – easier for beginner gear and skill set. The location of the site caused a dome like effect, the night sky was surrounded by mountains on the horizon. The desert landscape meant no tall trees to interrupt the view. It was stars as far as eyes could see. And more with binoculars. And more still with camera. Along the milky way, nearly every pixel was occupied by a star. We saw meteors. We saw satellites.
It was not an unpleasant experience sleeping (somewhat fitfully) while listening to the periodic shutter of our DSLR. I woke up with a start once because a donkey was braying. The occasional gust made the tent cover flap and added to the fitfulness of the sleep. We would wake up early, wrap up the gear and drive back to the Panamint Spring Resort. There we would grab breakfast, enjoy a hot shower, catch naps, inspect the photography artifacts from night before and plan the upcoming night’s shooting. On the very last night of our stay, we decided to skip the campsite and shoot from the resort’s well maintained campground. Our neighbor was a loud group that kept the fire going until well past midnight. The sky was so dark that it didn’t stop us from being able to see the stars, infinite of them. For the first time, I could actually see a nebula, the Orion nebula, through binoculars.
Stars make me happy and sad at the same time. More than anything, they make me want to live my life at its fullest. I truly believe that there are millions of intelligent species elsewhere in the universe and we are not unique. Heck, our planet has thousands of intelligent species! I want desperately for SETI to succeed. But I have finally come to grapple with the fact that there is simply no way for us to hear observable noises from another planet for a long time. That long time is perhaps a million years. Andromeda, the nearest large galaxy, which likely hosts a human like intelligent lifeform or two, is over 2.5 million light years away. Humanity has been making observable noise only the last two hundred years. Even as I write it, I want to hold on to a little iota of hope.
This year’s Durga Puja
For last decade, I have made it my practice to listen to Chandi Path (“Mahisasur Mardini“), on Mahalaya, the first day of Durga Puja, early at 4 am. This is the day, the Goddess takes form to slay the half man half buffalo demon Mahisasur. This year, on Mahalaya, we were at Paicines, it was a new moon night and we were busy shooting Andromeda galaxy. By the time, we were tired of star gazing and shivering, it was well past 3 am. Could I have listened to Chandi Path with coyotes howling at stars? I was too exhausted to appreciate the beautiful chants of Birendra Krishna Bhadra. I eventually listened to Chandi path 7 days later while making breakfast and thought about my fellow Bengalis who congregate by the oldest radio shop in Kolkata to listen to Mahalaya (link).
Read the rest of this entry »A blue oak woodland in summer
Blue oaks are native to California and are endemic. Meaning, they should be everywhere in California and be nowhere else. They aren’t as easy to spot as their name would have you think. Blue oak aren’t blue. Describing oak leaves as blueish-green may help when the light is just right. Describing the leaves as leathery doesn’t help in California where most of the vegetation tends to have leathery leaves. I would have to walk around with an acorn+leaf chart to match them. Our most common oaks, are the coastal oak (bristly tips) and the valley oak (have lobes). The valley oak grows tall and has twisted branches and lends a queen like elegance to the landscape. The coastal oak often look like they have fought hard to survive, a sherpa who can keep climbing forever. Blue oaks have been elusive to me in Bay Area preserves and parks. Rangers tell me that most of the existing blue oaks are on private lands.
Last weekend we found ourselves on such a private land, the regenerative Paicines (Pai-seen-us) Ranch. We had gone looking for astrophotography opportunities. During our stay, we learned about their Blue Oak forest and I had to take a look. When you live in California long enough, oaks become as fascinating as the Redwoods. One year, we noticed the coastal oaks in our neighborhood masting (link). I want to find acorn flour so I can make flatbread but I don’t want to start with harvesting acorns even when the trees are masting. This trip, the cottage we stayed at, the Cheese Cottage, was next to a large Valley Oak specimen. The cottage’s patio was high up enough that I was practically sitting in a tree house. It allowed me to notice the oak galls up close.
Here are few photos of the blue oak woodland. I present them in black and white. By the time we explored the woodland, the sun was high up and the shadows were stark. It is the end of summer here and the grasses had turned into straw color. The leaves were covered in dust. If it were spring, the woodland floor would have been covered in blue lupines, and the blue dicks and my photographs would have wanted to reflect all that color.
The fascinating Sitka spruce
I recently heard a joke and this is how it goes: “What do you do if you are lost in the Icelandic forests?” You just stand up!
Downy birch (Betula pubescens) was the backbone of Iceland’s native forests. It covered 20% of Iceland prior to Norse settlement in 9th century. Over harvesting and free range sheep grazing has left Iceland devoid of its native forests. While Iceland appears beautiful to a visitor and is on bucket list of every hiker, Iceland’s soil erosion is described as catastrophic. The seedlings that come up against the soil quality odds have a further hard time surviving sheep grazing. Those that do survive struggle to grow into trees with a vertical form and grow as shrubs instead. In places where reforestation is afoot, Sitka spruce (Picea sitchensis) are coming to rescue. The Sitka spruce can withstand far adverse conditions than the native birch, including standing up to coastal salt and high wind. So, they are being planted first and when they mature, the more delicate species are grown in the nooks protected by Sitka spruce. To learn more about Iceland’s reforestation challenges, go on to watch “How do you grow trees in a treeless land?” (link)
For me, Sitka spruce is a memory switch. It reminds me of a trip to Alaska where I had fly-fished for salmon standing in waist deep glacial waters while watching a bear mom catch salmon for her two toddlers.
Soon after I had seen the Sitka spruce first hand, Gordon Hempton had referred to Sitka Spruce as nature’s largest violin. Gordon describes the recording event on his website: “I’ve positioned my microphone system that replicates 3-D human hearing inside a giant Sitka spruce log. This tree grew in the nearby rain forest and then floated down the Bogachiel River before coming to a rest (temporarily) at Rialto Beach. The wood of this tree species has special properties that make it ideal for crafting violins, guitars, and other acoustic instruments because the wood produces a sound when exposed to the slightest vibration. But here, instead of a bow drawn across violin strings, the sound of distant surf is powerful enough to cause this Sitka log to produce its own deep, harmonic concert.”
He had shared with some of us the sound this violin produces. I am musically challenged, to me it had sounded more like united heartbeats of creatures that had congregated by the ocean, hearts fluttering in mild anxiety, in heightened anticipation…
Everybody has a got a rhythm…
… I decided that I could no longer wait to find mine. After decades of sitting still at a desk, I am finally starting to embrace movement. If you asked me to describe my body’s rhythm right now, I would probably say that it is one foot after next, bipedalism.
When I was just learning bipedalism, my mom had enrolled me in a Kathak school. It was so long ago that I don’t have any memories except the ghungroo, the little bells on one’s anklets, they made sound in unison with every stomp. Perhaps my mother put the ghungroo on my feet to entice me to dance.
These bells are often strung on a red felt pad and the dancers color their feet red. It is visually captivating to see feet in red dancing with rhythm, speed and exhilaration.
I was in a small town, it had a single Kathak teacher. My mom tells me that I had to stop learning Kathak because my teacher died, he fell off his balcony while drunk. I had imagined this skinny older individual who was practicing the Chakkars (the spins in Kathak), and then fell off the balcony. I remember that when I would do the Chakkars, I would drift and get dizzy. I imagined that he did too, not knowing then that those practiced in the dance form, neither get dizzy nor drift while spinning.
I could have restarted when we moved town, and we moved across many a towns, but I was already preferring to sit still.
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I thought I would end the San Juan Island travel stories by asking chatGPT to illustrate Roy Franklin’s three-car system of landing on cow pastures at night. Roy would have three cars positioned to show where the “runway” was located — one at the near end with headlights pointing forward up the field, a second crosswise to the landing area with lights pointing across it to mark the midpoint, and the third at the far end with red brake lights showing the end of the landing area.
After making sure that chatGPT understood the landing setup, I asked it to illustrate. Here is what I got:
This wasn’t logically correct, so I asked chatGPT to explain what was wrong with the illustration and it cleverly responded as follows: In Roy Franklin’s system,
- Car 1 (near end) → should be inline with the runway, headlights pointing straight ahead down the strip (toward where the plane will land).
- Car 3 (far end) → also should be inline with the runway, red brake lights facing the oncoming plane (to mark the end).
- Car 2 (midpoint) → should be perpendicular (crosswise) to the runway, headlights pointing across it, creating a visual midpoint marker.
So yes, it said with confidence — Cars 1 and 3 ought to be parallel to the plane’s landing direction, while Car 2 is crosswise.
So then – I asked, go ahead partner, give me a correct illustration this time. And, this is what it produced next, wondering aloud what else it could do for me:
And I said, thank you, not today. You clearly need some tea and biscuit after all that thoughtful work.
Did you ever watch Fawlty Towers episode “The Builders” (Season 1, Episode 2). Basil Fawlty decides to have some construction work done at the hotel while his wife Sybil is away. Against her instructions, Basil hires the unreliable and cheap builder O’Reilly instead of the competent builder Sybil prefers. Predictably, everything goes wrong. O’Reilly and his crew botch the job. When asked to fix his mistake, O’Reilly tries to downplay the scale of the mistake, and uses the line: ‘Lick of paint, lick of paint.. half an hour. Give us a biscuit!’.
Across the Puget Sound
Today’s story is about a small plane flight. It originated from Boeing Field, Seattle and landed in Friday Harbor Airport, San Juan Island. Apparently, San Juan Island is in Salish Sea’s banana belt. The arial view of the Puget Sound is described as the highlight of this short flight.
These planes are tiny. In addition to the two pilots (ours only had one), it can accommodate eight passengers. There are four rows of seats, each row has one seat on either side of the plane. There isn’t much between you and the outside – the 6000 square miles of the sea, the Olympic mountains, the straits of Juan de Fuca, the 400 islands and unending blue sky. These planes fly low, and I had packed my binoculars in my day bag, ready for island spotting (and really hoping to see whale activity on the ocean surface). Statistics doesn’t quite apply to one’s own situation. The day we flew out, all the precipitation that is statistically due in the banana belt in the month of August fell on this one day in August. As a Californian, who has often picked up the phone to watch a fire report, I am not averse to rain. However, given everything the ride over the Puget Sound had to offer, all I got was the clouds.
Orcas of Salish Sea
It will be underwhelming to just say that I loved every minute of this four hour trip. It was a thrill of a lifetime, although wish me luck, I want to have many such thrilling adventures in my life. A weekend trip to San Juan Island materialized the dream of seeing the orcas up close.
Before the story, we have to start with the confusing terminology – killer whales. A – Orcas are not whales, they are largest members of dolphin species. B- Some of them might be whale killers, but not in our neck of the woods. Here in our pacific northwest, the resident orcas exclusively eat chinook, the fattiest salmon. The transient orcas eat marine mammals like harbor seals and porpoise. They eat what their grandmother taught them to. Frankly, their persnickety eating habits remind me of some members of my own family!
In the language of Haida, orcas are called Sgan (sometimes written as Sgaana or SGaana). “The word for killer whale in Haida is “Sgan” which means “supernatural,” and also “the chief of the underworld.” In mythic times, killer whale was chief of the underworld. They say that when you go underwater to visit the territory of the killer whales, it’s no different from being on land, except that because you’re in their world, you see them as humans.” — Robert Davidson, internationally acclaimed Haida artist
Back to the story. My first interest in orcas coincided with my interest in the gentle humpback whales. I am now convinced that humpback whale is my spirit animal. These two species are not friends so, and therefore, my position on orcas is not particularly friendly. That is not to say I don’t admire the grandmother orcas. One of my favorite wildlife program is The Wild with Chris Morgan. Listening to the episode, “Evesdropping on Orcas: Love, Grief and Family“, I have grown to appreciate how close they to human kind. I am not known to be fond of humans either.
Read the rest of this entry »First nine months of growing mushrooms
After 9 months, I tore down my miniature indoor oyster farm. I have harvested and dried several batches, enough to last me an year or more. Oysters are not my go to cooking mushrooms. They are beginner mushrooms for those who want to explore growing.
While I am far from being a seasoned mushroom grower, I now have the confidence to keep oyster mushrooms alive. Nine months ago, even that had seemed daunting. The growing kits are awfully expensive. And youTube university offers too many diverse options. In the end, I wanted something that would prove to be cost effective while being sustainable. In my wild mushroom foraging experience, cleaning the mushrooms had felt like a chore. So I had wanted a setup where the mushrooms would need minimal cleaning.
I went through a number of thought experiments before getting started. The eventual setup ended up being a steel table, topped by a clear plastic portable greenhouse (3 ft long, 2 ft wide and 3 ft tall), equipped with a 1.7L personal humidifier that turns on and off on a timer. The mushrooms were cultivated in four 2 gallon plastic buckets in straw media.
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This summer, we have been hunting for stargazing opportunities. To bring the hunt closer home, we wondered if we could go up to one of our local parks at night. As far as idea goes, it isn’t a terrible idea. Monte Bello Open Space Preserve is on the list of San Jose Astronomical Association. We decided to try Russian Ridge Mindigo Hill Gateway, a more familiar haunt within a few miles of Monte Bello. We got ourselves an after-hours astrophotography permit from Mid-peninsula Open Space and made plans for a 10 am to 2 pm shift.
We have driven up to Mindigo Gateway often, it is one of our favorite hikes. Fom Woodside Road, we could see the fog clinging to the mountain top. We clung to hope – microclimates, we murmured. On hikes, I have loved this fog. Hiking on a foggy morning is moving meditation at its peak and fog drips are simply, magical.
As we wound our way through Skyline, the sunset had turned the sky nearly garnet red. Many were parked along the road admiring the sunset. Where we were headed, down the windy and narrow Alpine road, the fog got denser by the minute and hope faded at the same rate. The sliver of the moon was struggling to peek through the fog. When we missed the parking at the trailhead, we knew it was time to turn back around.
Embracing Schrödinger’s cat
Exposure therapy suggests that if you are afraid of spiders, then to get over that fear, spend more time with them! For instance, if I were afraid of spiders, I might photograph spider webs covered by morning dew. I think that exposure therapy works by rightsizing your expectation of the outcome. An anxious brain tends to catastrophize, but in real life, outcomes are not extreme. As you gather experiences through exposure, you rebuild brain circuitry and eventually, you start to lean towards the common outcomes.
If exposure therapy had worked on its own, my travel anxiety would not have existed for decades. I am moderately well trod and have been traveling since I was a kid. It is only recently that I have turned a corner and it has felt like a switch instead of a long winded effort. To see where Schrödinger’s cat fits in, stay tuned…
Read the rest of this entry »In search of stars
I have strong memories of lying down on the rooftop of my grandmother’s house in the outskirts of Kolkata and looking up at the stars. I must have been six or eight then and star gazing used to feel like a vacation treat. Where we lived, Delhi, the apartment building rooftops didn’t afford the intimacy needed for this quiet sport. And the sky above my grandmother’s house, away from city lights, showed up with a hundred times more stars.
Those starry skies helped develop my love for physics. I loved projects like SETI. I devoured space odysseys. It felt great to be part of the universe – irrespective of what I did or not do, the universe would carry on. I read a book where a space adventurer spends an entire lifetime on a space mission without finding a single life form. I read another book where the people on the planet live with two suns and permanent daytime – never seeing another star. Looking, reading and thinking about stars gave me goosebumps. Then I got busy looking at the computer screen, kindle screen, TV screen, … and decades went by. And with time, I saw fewer and fewer stars.
Then, a few years ago, my significant other took me to Joshua Tree National Park to celebrate the completion of 5 decades in this universe. I was born around the New Year and there are only a few parks in California where winter is dry enough for a ramble. On what had then felt like a whim, my partner borrowed a wide angle camera commonly used in astrophotography and we spent a couple of cold nights in the park, shooting stars. He did the shooting and I looked out for shooting stars. I also kept up the supply of hot tea. Afterwards, the shots got stacked and I had the first look of our own star trails (link). That made for the best birthday present ever. We didn’t know it then, but we had chanced upon a new moon in a cloud free Bortle Scale 2 sky. And that beginner’s luck switched something for my partner, a desire to lean into astrophotography.
Since that trip, we have happened to be under dark skies twice. First was Anza Borrego (link) where we glimpsed the Pleiades star cluster in between the cloud laden winter sky. Second was Alturas (link) where the full moon brightened up the sky all through the night. Last weekend proved the next significant step up in our star gazing luck. I say luck because one always needs luck. But after Alturas, we got serious with our dark sky vacation planning. We wanted a chance to shoot the Milky Way and that means summer months. We chose Pinnacles National Park, our closest dark sky at Bortle Scale 3-4, checked the moon phase and reserved a campsite.
We left home after work on Friday. By the time we got to the campsite, electric tent (#80), it was time to make dinner and prepare ourselves for the night ahead. The Night Sky app gave us the confidence that we could park our gear right outside the tent and still be able to see large swathes of the Milky Way. After some initial hiccups aligning the tracker to the North Star, we settled into the sky watching rituals. The #80 is close to the campground entrance, close to the toilets, close to the Highway and that meant constant comings and goings of fellow campers. We were blinded several dozen times. A large group of friends had gathered near us and were shouting boisterously by the fire. But even with all that light-filled disturbance that had us swearing like Captain Haddock, we knew we were going to get pretty images of the Milky Way.
Letter to a dear friend
Dear P,
She continues to be vibrant for us. While we knew that the vibrancy was highly punctuated for her, she reserved the highs for us. As a result, the circuits she built in our memories are full of her vibrant self. A box will arrive at your doorstep today. It contains some old memories, our way of celebrating her. It also contains some nudges for the times ahead, to help build some new circuits that lie adjacent to the older ones.
I didn’t know what a lithophane was. It is an old process of engraving a thin translucent plaque. The material surface appears opaque in ambient light. However, the surface glows like a digital image when held in front of any light source. The uneven thickness of the plaque causes the light to pass through varying depth and as a result, thinner region appear brighter and thicker regions appear darker. Now, with 3D printing, one can generate lithophanes based on photos.
I wanted her to continue lighting your world. So the few photos I have of her, and with you, are now molded with a 3D printer into a lithophane lightbox. The kind gentleman, William of Shut Your Traps, who made the lightbox, gave us six extra lithophane panes. They are swappable – you will need a 2mm hex wrench to take the top off. The E12 LED candelabra bulb should last, but if not, you will have to find a LED replacement. A regular bulb is too hot for the plastic. William sources the lampbox from https://www.thingiverse.com/thing:2721545. And since it is you, I thought I would share this lithophane study with you – “Data for all: Tactile graphics that light up with picture-perfect resolution“. It is a story of using lithophanes to level the visual playing between blind and sighted scientists.
I am also sending you some chocolates, the kind I think she might have liked because they tell a story. The chocolates (link) are not only made in India, the cacao grows in the Cauvery basin of southern India. When I was growing up in India, the only chocolate I had access to was “Cadbury 5 Star” and I can’t be gladder than in recent years, India has been producing a number of award winning chocolates. I seem to like Bon Fiction above all others. I am partial to the art on the cover, and she too would have liked the ethical chocolates. I have since learned that the cacao pulp is edible (link) – still waiting for the pulp to make it to the grocer’s shelf.
She also loved baked goods. I am sending you some baked goods in formats that don’t induce guilt, bisotti and taralli. We will visit Italy someday, but in the meantime, Italy has to come to us. The biscotti is from from a local Italian bakey, La Biscotteria. The shop has an unassuming front, and it is indulgent on the inside. The shelves are decorated with Italian handmade ceramics and rows of biscotti. They also serve products that call for moderation like fill-to-order cannoli and year-around panettoni. The savory taralli (link) are from Italy’s Puglia region and Sigona’s has been carrying them. Puglia is famous for its olive oil and durum wheat. Taralli is made with durum wheat flour, olive oil and wine, they are shaped like mini bagels, boiled briefly and then finished to breadstick like crispness in the oven. They are perfect with a glass of white wine or a cup of tea.
The Anne and Mao trees appear to be thriving amidst a floor of violet blooms. The irises had a comparatively subdued spring this year after their explosive bloom last year. The english lavenders seem to be crowding out the french ones. I also planted seeds of Dipterostemon capitatus, no luck so far. I wondered why they are commonly called Blue Dicks! Are they hard to grow in a suburban yard?
And finally, the books, what I am referring to as nudges. I am glad that the two of you shared your fondness for wild things in Galapagos. Amy Tan’s illustrated book Backyard Bird Chronicles suggests that wild things can also come to us. Now that your garden is growing, you will see more birds in your backyard. There are a number of fantastic apps that can help identify birds visually or using their calls. I have been told by people walking by my garden that they see some rare birds foraging for mulberries. I have not yet started my bird catalog. I know that my hummingbirds are Ana’s hummingbirds. They are supposed to be very territorial. I see them fight at times. Yet at other times I see them gather in a group. My feeder has a rim and they prefer sitting to hovering. They are so very tiny when they sit and they seem to shrink even further when wet. I got a small metal umbrella to cover the feeder, so they wouldn’t get wet in the rain. I recently learned that the feeders have changed hummingbird beak morphology and have expanded their reach in California – Bird feeders have caused a dramatic evolution of California hummingbirds. I also learned that birds use quantum entanglement to migrate (link). Some species of hummingbirds, not our Ana, migrate over 3,000 miles from Mexico and Central America to Alaska, twice a year—flying as many as 500 miles per day. Imagine these tiny little birds using quantum entanglement!
Octavia Butler, in the Wild Seed of the Patternist Series, imagines the protagonist, Anyanwu, shape-shifting into animal life forms. I do the next best thing. When I meditate, I imagine myself as my spirit animals – the elephant (land), the humpback (ocean) and the bald eagle (wind). When I am an eagle, I glide along the pacific coast, watching over the giant redwoods as well as the small tide pools that our Anne was fond of.
With love.
Not just any rock
After traipsing through the caves of Lava Bed National Monument, I caved into my long term desire and bought my first (and hopefully my last) molcajete. If Masienda had sold a legged molcajete, I would have bought that. If any other purveyor with provenance had a legged molcajete to sell, I would have bought that. But as such, my only option after searching the world from my armchair ended up being Masienda’s Chico. It arrived yesterday and I spent the morning seasoning it (link).
In my land, my mothers and their mothers have used the equivalent of metate, we call it shil nora. The shil is the larger stone and the nora is the handheld stone. I still remember using my mother’s shil nora for the first time – I had added some fresh grooves to her shil and some noticeable rocks to my ginger-garlic paste. I eventually learned the motion. Modern kitchens are not quite suited to shil nora, but a mortar and pestle fits in. Fact is that many of us have several sets of mortar and pestle. The molcajete is the closest to shil nora.
Unlike the Japanese Suribachi, Molcajete feels primeval. The tejolote (pestle) of this model fits my palms perfectly. I am hoping that as the tejolote calluses my hands, my hands in turn would smooth the volcanic stone down. Is it just a little poetic that we use the angry core of earth, the lava, to create a kitchen equipment that is used in pounding and smashing?
Modoc land
Snow capped mountains, lakes, waterfalls and rivers mark this land and volcanic eruptions have shaped these markers. What now exists is a mixture of what came naturally, and how the settlers shaped the land. Large agricultural fields stand where Tulelake once did – the 1906 Klamath Basin Project drained much of the lake to create farms and cattle grazing lands. What is left of Tulelake now is struggling to become a wildlife refuge. In drought years like 2021, Tulelake becomes a giant mud puddle, leaving the current stewards of the lake, U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service, scrambling to fight botulism (link). Alturas town, the far east side of Modoc land prides itself as a land where cattle is raised.
Where the forest prevails, I imagine that it looks much the same as what it did a thousand years ago. In the spring, the snow capped mountains are visible in the distance, the blue sky is full of white fluffy clouds, the streams and creeks criss-cross the land, small and large lakes and swamps offer view of nesting birds, the fresh green leaves of trees are interspersed by black volcanic rocks. On a trail, the sound of a waterfall or river is never too far. The light on the forest floor looks green due to all the new leaves in the understory of tall pines.
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Locomotoring 